I am ashamed

As most of my long-time readers know, I try my best in this blog to be as honest as I possibly can, in part to make up for the amount of lying that was part of my life before. That isn't always easy, a lot of the time I'd rather talk about something "safe" than bring out the tough stuff that's going on. Like, for example, discovering I did the double-look at boys, that was not easy to write out for public consumption, to say the least.

Sadly, I'm faced with one of those moments again

I just came back from the bank, and I have far less money than I should, and its all because I've let myself spend when I needed to save for paying my bills. As a result, I am going to have to go to my brother and trade labor for money so I don't have to leave my mother short on my share of the bills here.

I have also decided the only way to prevent this in the future is that I am taking out my debit card from my wallet and leaving it at home, so I can't spend money unless I plan ahead to take it or go back for it.

I am deeply ashamed of my irresponsibility, and am hoping this idea helps curb that tendency in the future.