Advice on Dealing with Family

Let me make this clear. I know some Aspergers folk and the one's I know are good people, and friends of mine.

So, I have been estranged from my family for 9 years now, and have made several attempts to reconcile through my son.

He is a Dominion Fundamentalist Christian, even more extreme than I was prior to 2003. In the last several days, I have realized some things. He blows hot and cold in a most illogical manner. I have sought forgiveness, and have been willing to "repent" enough to resume living as a man, as insane as that may be.

He talks about God and the Bible a lot via, Facebook, email and phone. He tells me that my two daughters and X do not wish to talk to me, but now I realize that I think he has been manipulating them and I for those 9 years. He let it slip that the family think I ignore them, but he has declined my repeated requests for him to help me contact them. He has been really devious, or at least not comprehended what he is doing.

I have had just loads of my own Mental Health stuff to sort through but have focused on recovery and living a useful life. They say I am either Borderline or Bipolar II, but mostly I have lived a very successful life, aside from this unwanted GID crap.

Though no diagnosis was ever made, I think he is High Functioning Asperger's, and that may account for the way he has handled the relational aspects of our relationship. I know an Asperger's guy who drives city bus and has for years. And I also know an Asperger's guy is a very famous Artist and novelist. I won't reveal his name, but I know you would recognize his art.I also know several authors on this site who are Asperger's and write lovely stories.

So, now I need advice. Should I plunk down $500 to contact my two daughters with a letter letting them know that I love them, miss them, and would love to see them? Or do you think his representation of their feelings about me is accurate?