Yes, I am perverted.

OK, I freely admit to the duality of my nature. On one hand, I am devout. On the other hand, were I married, things could go way over the top within the confines of our bedroom. It is probably a shock to some of you. In the time when I wished to kill my self, perhaps some will think I should have. Frankly I have an attachment to pain that I did not understand and felt considerable guilt over most of my life. I think only one or two of you actually do understand. I never acted on it they way I wished to.

The point is that knowing myself better now, I no longer wish to be beaten, branded with a red hot coat hangar, pierced or shackled in any way at all.

Sorry this was a shock to some of you.

Gwendolyn