struggling with a sense of failure

Well, last night, Samantha's mother found a letter at her work that said the health department had done an inspection of the doctor's office she cleans, and said the bathrooms are below par.

And since cleaning them has been my job for the last while, that means I have failed her in that task, and its really pulling me down.

For most of my life, you see, I've struggled with a sense of failure. First, because I couldnt seem to beat back my desire to be a girl, and then as I got older I seemed to acquire more failures - failures at jobs, failures at a higher education, failures at personal relationships, and most recently, failure at marriage.

I'll pick myself up and keep going, no choice, but I could really use a success....

Ah, well.