I'm not doing as well as I thought?

Well, yesterday I went to the trans group pot-luck, and it was good, but apparently, my friends there are worried about me. They told me they can see both the manic and the depression, and that I need to get it under control, or I risk something bad happening.

Now, the person I was would have said, "Serves me right for opening up. I try to be honest, and they think I'm nuts." and would have withdrawn from the group.

But I'm trying to be a better person now, and sometimes, that means I have to be able to know when people are trying to tell me hard truths to help me.

So as soon as I'm able, I'm going to visit the doc and see if there is a way to help me stabilize my moods.

Which probably means more meds, which I cant really afford, but will need anyway.

Sigh.