I'm having trouble resolving the trans/gay issue.

I have been living full time as a woman for about three years. I am heading for Thailand to finish by the end of the month.

To be truthful, since my Orchiectomy and beginning Hormones, I don't have a sexual attraction. When I return, I shall be fully female, but there is no physiological reason for my desires to change.

I have not recently sought male companionship, but I do have several female friends.

I have discovered that I have an emotional need to be with a man. I want him to be handsome, strong, and intelligent. I plan to fully occupy the roll of the 50's female. So, I don't know if I am lying to myself or what. I would happily please a man in any of the traditional ways. Anal is not one of them.

I am just trying to be truthful to myself here. I consider myself a heterosexual woman, but am I in fact Gay?

Gwenellen