Living 2 lives

Well, two days into the new job, and I am not sure about how long it will last. The pressure to sell is amazing, and I just dont have the way with jokes that some of the others do. Plus, I am dealing with having to do a quick-change before I go home - putting my Dorothy clothes in a bag and putting on male ones. The clothes are a symptom of the fact I am currently living 2 lives. One as Dorothy at work, and one as Todd at home (A switch from before, where it was the other way around) I dont feel very good having to be dishonest anymore to the ex or to Sam, but I cant see any way to fix that situation. Either I stay "closeted" at least as far as they are concerned, or I come out all the way, and deal with the fallout. Sigh.