Well... I just lost completely lost hope of ever finding romance.

So I met this girl at church, right? Well, goddamn it... once again I thought was seeing favorable signs of romantic interest and once again I could not have been more wrong. It appears that I have no ability whatsoever to determine if a girl is interested in me or not.

Alas, this has happened to me one too many times. Now, even if a girl is interested in me, I don't think I'll be able to believe it. I don't know how to trust in that anymore. I don't know what means what.

I am completely clueless. And that's that. I give up, completely, totally and utterly. I give up.

It's time I learned to accept that I'm not meant to find love in this life and learn to live single. That is my lot.

At least this time, I'm talking about living and not dying.

Best,
Lisa