seeing your roses before they bloom

My world is beyond imagination when I know my femme side. I love what comes out of me. yes I am not afraid but I need a push and big sister. I love my sexy side just wish that I had gone all the way twenty years ago. Every part of me know my arousal to all senses when I am en femme and I touch my nipplesand explode with joy. My next play is to give in to desire and give up reluctance. Maybe a public outing.. Can anyone relate??