Lad or Lass

LAD OR LASS

When I was born
there was an impasse
was I a lad
or was I a lass?

A decision was made
it was a boy
so began a life
totally without joy

As I grew up
it became apparent
that the decision made
was certainly errant

I tried my best
to be a real guy
but to my shame
it was all a lie

I played with the girls
but was mostly alone
I did not fit
what was etched in stone

My teen years came
I did not date
as my puberty was
very late

As an adult
I was very lost
I tried to fit in
but at a great cost

I turned away
from who I was
I told myself
it was just because

Life moved on
and I got married
children came
and I was harried

I steeled myself
to what was needed
and carried on
but a doubt was seeded

Can I be
my true self
or will I stay
upon the shelf

Now it is here
time to retire
maybe I'll find
my true sire

Am I a man
or really a woman
it is hard to tell
I am only human

I think that I know
what will come to pass
I was not a lad
but truly a lass

The end?